"I can't take it anymore. Everyone thinks I'm indestructible; the girl who never flinches; the girl who always has a smile on her face; the girl that's gone through so much yet doesn't have one scar -- and I'm tired of it! I don't want to live behind a wall of laughter and smiles anymore. I want people to understand me. I want people to understand how hard it is to be me and to have to deal with all this crap and still be expected to be happy. It's not fair. Why is it that everyone else can just fall apart but I have to be the one to keep it together?"

feel like I am sitting in a room full of people that I love, and you know what, they just don't care that I love them. They don't care whether or not I live or die. To them I'm just another girl, just another stranger. To me, they are my best friends, the only people I have left."

What I can remember is a lot like water trickling down a page of the most beautiful colors. I can't quite put my finger down on the moment that I became like this. You see, I'm the bravest girl you'll ever come to meet. Yet I shrink down to nothing at the thought of someone really seeing me. I think my heart is wrapped around and tangled up in winding weeds but I don't want to go on living being so afraid of showing someone else my imperfections. And even though I'm trembling and every word I say comes out stumbling, I will bear it all. Watch me unfold.

I guess the real fact of the matter is, we don't know what tomorrow's going to bring and the only thing we really have is right now. So, don't stay mad for too long. Learn to forgive. Love with all your heart. Stay up all night. Have fun. Live your life the way you want to live it. Don't worry about the people that don't like you. Enjoy the ones who do. Have a crush. Kiss a boy. Just live life the way you want and you'll be happy with it and don't let anyone tell you you're doing it wrong.

The whole world wants you to be miserable, to put your head down, sigh to yourself and give up on being happy. Sometimes giving up seems like the only option. Don't give those little fuckers an inch. Stand your ground every chance you get.

nder the moon, it's beautiful. The stars clear the black of night when I'm with you. Nervously, I take your hand and promise you I'll take you for a ride. "Someday, we'll have it all. You and me, we're going to be famous." We'll run away from everything you hate, run away to everything you've wanted. So take my hand, let's get famous.

As I grow to understand life less and less, I learn to love it more and more.

-Jules Renard

If you don't mind, I think I'll wear my heart on my sleeve, 'cause I'm tired of not being able to breathe.

ere's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The trouble-makers. The round heads in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status-quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify, or vilify them. But the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see geniuses. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones that do.

f you're going to love me, love me deeply. If you're going to break my heart, then break it all. If you're going to care, care for me completely. If you decide not to hold me, then just let me fall. If you're going to stay, then stay forever and if you want to leave, then do it today. If you're going to change, change for the better. And if you're going to talk, please mean what you say.

My thoughts tend to sound better in books I didn't write and in the songs I didn't sing. Even then, sometimes there is no piece of literature, no song, no work of art that can really explain the way you feel. There is a double-edge comfort in knowing that no one really knows.

I want to hear someone's life story. A stranger's. And then tell them mine. I want them to know everything about me. Those little things that I keep to myself because I'm afraid of judgment. Terrible, awful things that I lock up in the back of my head. The way someone or something makes me feel. My opinions. The truth. Everything and anything I can think of. And I want them to not hate me afterwards.

reate me, make me into everything and more. I am tired of not being enough, and you're tired of being too much. Put me in heels and curled hair and wait for morning because tonight could come too soon. You could be my morning light, and I could be your moon. I'll be your blanket when you're cold, and light up the night.

more random ones. when i read quotes like these i am reminded that my words aren't the only beautiful ones written.

i sew sunshine onto your skin

ribbons that glow warm

the humg of the wind

catches on your breath

butterfly, butterfly"

She was a girl who knew how to act happy even when she was sad, and that's important.

~Marilyn Monroe

My body is a journal in a way. It's like what sailors used to do, where every tattoo meant something, a specific time in your life when you make a mark on yourself, whether you do it yourself with a knife or with a professional tattoo artist.

~Johnny Depp

There's nothing new under the sun. All the roads lead to Rome.

And people cannot provide it for you. I can't wake you up.

You can wake you up. I can't cure you.

You can cure you.

~John Lennon

I do understand that impulse. The impulse to put your hand out and want someone to be there at the end of your reach. To want someone to be close to. To want to kiss or touch even if it's wrong. The point is, you can't control these feelings. Even if they're wrong, they're there. They're always there.

The only two places where I feel absolutely safe are either in bed with fresh, white sheets and pillows surrounding my head or in water. Like on the bottom of a swimming pool. Alone. Weightless. Peaceful. Nobody talking. Nobody pretending. Just being. Those are the only two places. Everywhere else I get smacked in the face with arrogance, ignorance, shallowness. They knock me down and leave me bleeding on the floor.

No one is free. Even birds are chained to the sky.

You'll meet her, she's very pretty, even though sometimes she's sad for many days at a time. You'll see, when she smiles, you'll love her.

~Ophelia; Pan's Labyrinth

I'm trying to find myself as a person, sometimes that's not easy to do. Millions of people live their entire lives without finding themselves. But it is something I must do.

~Marilyn Monroe

I shut my eyes in order to see.

~Paul Gaugin

sometimes you're further than the moon; sometimes you're closer than my skin.

In your whole life, nobody has ever abused you more than you have abused yourself. And the limit of your self-abuse is exactly the limit of abuse that you will tolerate from someone else.

I trust the sun will set. I trust the world will end. I trust my gut. I trust death. I trust life. I trust anything that has not fallen through. I trust everything that has given me a reason. But I can't trust you.

To exist for just yourself is meaningless.

~Denis Waitley

I want to scream and pound my head against the wall and climb the damned dusty, faded stringy curtains. I've got to get out of here. I've got to get the hell out of here before I really blow my cool all the way. I'm scared and lonely and I'm sick, I'm as sick as I've ever been in my life.

Sometimes even depressing things can be utterly beautiful.

It's kind of like when you look at yourself in the mirror and you say your name. And it gets to a point where none of it seems real. Well, sometimes, I can do that, but I don't need an hour in front of a mirror. It just happens very fast, and things start to slip away. And I just open my eyes, and I see nothing. And then I start to breathe really hard trying to see something, but I can't. It doesn't happen all the time, but when it does, it scares me.

~The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional.

its what people do; they stay alive for each other.

I am convinced that the human spirit is precious and fragile and beautiful no matter how crushed it becomes.